Tonight we are heading to a concert.
The last time we went to a concert was the day before I had my last miscarriage and I am feeling a bit stressed!
Now, I know deep down that there was nothing about that last concert that we went to that would have caused the miscarriage.
I already knew I was pregnant, so I wasn’t drinking.
The music really wasn’t that loud.
I sat down most of the time (except that my lower back was really sore so I had to stand for a bit).
But there’s this pit in my stomach that keeps saying, “What if?”
I have no idea what I would do if for some reason I had another miscarriage tomorrow.
Feel super guilty? Never go to a concert again?
It’s so illogical.
I’m already past the day that I had the miscarriage last month (5 weeks and 1 day as opposed to 5 weeks and 3 days today) so that’s comforting.
If you’ve ever had a miscarriage, you know that when you get pregnant again, there’s this awful thought in the back of your mind that today might be the day. Or maybe tomorrow.
You just have to hold onto hope and take it day by day.
I will just have to look forward to the first prenatal appointment tomorrow and set my hopes high!